sick&anxious [edited]

Hope this fizzles over.

edit: 11:40pm

I want everything and nothing at all. Going through people's blogs, I'm having those moments where all I want is to be a super girly girl with the makeup, the shoes, the clothes, the perfume, the magazines, the sweets, the chocolate pieces, the lip gloss, jewelry, pink iPhones, nail polish, pampering, everything.




Then I feel like being a rough chic with all the black, smudged eyeliner, careless mascara, double shot glass, 9mm, silver, brass knuckles, crucifix, studs, leather, boots, dirt, dust, dessert, boys, XBOX360, tequila, everything.




But in the end I want to be comfy snuggly, broken-in couch, boyfriend, pjs, caramel popcorn, ponytail, sweatpants, mismatched socks, indie films on, tea boiling, mint chocochip ice cream, Wii on standby, friends coming over, lounging on the carpet, shoes off, sweaters on, everything.


I dreamt about my dog. He was happy. At times, I want nothing more, nothing but him.

As I close my eyes
and think about tomorrow...
I'll dream about yesterday, the way I usually do.